i’m moving. you can now follow me on blogger. http://askcallen.blogspot.com

I’m going to run a marathon. I haven’t decided which one yet. There’s the Des Moines Marathon in October, or the Dam to Dam in May of next year. i’m going to start training for it starting next week.

I’ve never had the desire to do it before, but I think it’ll be cool. I’m not going to run to win, I’ll do it just to finish it. As long as I’m not in the last one to cross the finish line.

What I did this summer…

@ the veronicas concert (w/the boys, angie & her girlfriend)

Michael & Callen @ a Chicago house party

(L-R) Beau, Callen, David, David & Austin @ Tear It Up Tuesday

(L-R) Beau, David, Callen & Tai 4th of July weekend

yes, sometimes i wish i know why people do the things they do. why we’re cruel and hurtfull. i know that people aren’t above doing the most appalling things to one another. it still shocks me, but at the same time, i kinda expected it. i think we just need to treat one another a little better. there is such thing as karma, you know?

sushi!

mmmm… dinner.

I’m done with summer classes. I have an entire month before school starts. I’m looking for a job. Anything that doesn’t involve food service, or outbound phone calls, or door-to-door sales, or prositituion, or swallowing cocaine filled balloons… basically nothing illegal or that sucks.

I hope I passed Statitics. Its a required class. I hated it. Sooo much! Grades will be posted next week. I really hope I get a C or higher.

Would I want to be with someone? Of course! Who doesn’t? No one wants to be alone. But being alone doesn’t mean being lonely. For the most part, I think I’m happy with being single. It’s just that there are times when its unbearable.

The thing is, I’m actually quite scared of going out there. Dating is a very scary thing. You have your heart on the line– the thought of it is just unsettling. I’ve seen my friends fall in and out of love, go through humiliating situations, and get their hearts broken. I have my share of those too. Between what I’ve witnessed and what I’ve experienced, you can’t blame me for being apprehensive.

I wish that I’m braver.

 

(L-R) Beau, Callen, David and Tai

If we love our friends, we want them to be good people, we want them to better themselves. We can’t just let them go down, otherwise, what’s the difference between them and a random stranger?

 

I say this because this was one of the many conversations we had on our way to Chicago. One of David’s other friends has a habit of saying negative things about others behind their back. I told David that if he values his friendship with this person,  then he would want them to be a good person. The problem, I think, is that we use the word “friend” so loosely, that all of the things that are suppose to be attached to such title are lost. Anyone who we have some random connection with is a “friend”, I blame MySpace, Facebook and other social networking  sites for this.

A friend to me, is someone who’s welfare we consider above every other stranger, and if that consideration is reciprocated, then you’re lucky.

I’m not a bad driver, I think. I’m not a careless one either. I have avoided any sort of traffic citation since I got my drivers license, but we all know that has less to do with being a good driver, but more to do with just being lucky.

It seems like my luck has ran out. I could blame it on the fact that my car now has a huge dent, and now I’m more likely to be pulled over because I’m unfairly being profiled– but it started before that. And now, I have 3 traffic violations in the span of 3 months. If I remember correctly, 3 moving violations equals drivers improvement class, not to mention an increase on my already astromically high premium– which has less to do with being a good driver and more on just being a young male.

It’s annoying, yes. I think I’m starting to be at peace with it. There is a reason why traffic laws are in place. The law is the law regardless of your individual situation. It may seem unfair to us as individuals, but it make sense collectively. I’m not saying that these laws make sense, but unless someone challenges it, and it gets struck down by the court, we’re kinda stuck with it.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to start turning tricks now so that I can pay for my traffic tickets.

dear you,
think about what you have asked for, and make sure that your actions are mirroring what you expect to receive, and that they’re not contradicting what you’ve asked for. take actions in your life to reflect your expectation.
xoxo
callen